as every year in my family...i consider CNY as a "business" or some sort (considering tat i have a HUGE family) so i won't missed it for the whole world...but i might say this year has been really....not...as happening as it is....one things for sure...i din go on Lion Dance hunting....the other thing is not everyone comes back...and some went back early....it has become a very normal feeling CNY....
everyone kept on asking me "where is ur gf?" all i answered was "she's at her hometown...u'll see her sooner or later". I think this question circulates around from the aunties and uncles, till the cousins, newphews and niece even the family's fren whom some i have no idea wut name of...all i can answer is she is not here...one cousin even ask me, "eh 2day valentine's day woooooooo...din buy anything for gf?" i'll say...its kinda bad luck tat both special day falls at the same time...and as i explain to my darling saying tat i'm a family type of person, i rather she spends time with her family on the special day more than anything else as i am liddat....she understds....though she din insist tat she wana spend the special day with me, but we both know....and i'm happy tat we know as well....
CNY was also pretty much important day for us both as well, the one i'm especially nervous on is meeting her parents....
i mean one thing i'm nervous on is with how i am as a person physically can really sends the wrong message to other ppl, jus like how the goverment ppl at putrajaya discriminate me and i quote [in tat memo directly from the PM's Office] "...the physical image of the person stated above is sending out the wrong message to the people whether is to Malaysian or Non-Malaysian"...this matter is sent to my office i think sometime months ago and for tat i can't step foot in Putrajaya anymore....not tat i don't like it there but the ppl don't like how i look tat sends the wrong message to other ppl? i mean..WAT MESSAGE???!?!?!?...therefore, i like being how i am.. and how i look doesn't affect the way i work or talk to ppl...more or less, i'm way much better than anyone else u can see on the streets whther commucating socially and behaviour...but jus because of the physical look they judge u and i always think its unfair....jus because we have piercing and tattoos doesn't mean we kill ppl.....
and overall tat contribute to wut i fear off....baby did mention to me and asked me whether i would take off my piercing if i see my dad, my 1st reaction was...of course not..how i am is how i am....can't change anything at all cause i dun wanted to change....she was ok with it as well, but on 2nd thought, i told her i might take it off as well, cause i fear tat wut is happening when i really see them...as how the old ones doesn't accept how i look back then...it might happen again....it took me quite sometime to change their mind.....
so i went up to her hometown on the 2nd day nite and met her mum and her family, i can say eventhough i din talk much, i can see how much they dun mind how i look and all as i still have my piercing on tat time.....i stayed and played cards till 3 am + in the morning and luck was on my side tat nite as well, i am happy....mainly cause its ok with her mum, she was glad and i was too....went back to my place early 3rd day of CNY cause i need to help out...
she was nervous as well as she never really talked with my mum and from then and tat time, she kept on complainin to me saying tat she sked tat my mum doesn't like her....and thruout the whole day, she handled it pretty well and even without notice...my parents actually gave an early green light, especially the ever so difficult mum....i told her, "die lo...i cannot run ade..." and wut i meant was as how much i wanted her to be accepted in my heart...i was her to be accepted by my family as well.....in return she wans me to be the same as well.....
it was a whole day open hse on the 3rd day, as usual...theres never half day or wut in my hse as food is always surprising at home....baby helps out wtv she could and i do the usual stuff since i dun like to cook like last time....at nite my dad ask me and my gf to come along and we went all the way to kajang to get satay...we manage to snap a few pics on the way....
Starring.......
the Lanci Faced Girl...
The Killer...
i like this one personally....
went back and enjoy the rest of the nite...
the plan tat day was we have to go back to bentong tat very same day at 3 am, but for some strange reason we both slept till 6 am in the morning, i guess its pretty comfortable sleeping in each other's arms....reach bentong around 7 or 8 plus and went to take a nap a while...
woke up at 10am plus and baby and his father was arguing over coming back late last nite....i was still in the toilet and i overheard the whole thing...i never met the father yet but tat he was so fired up, my hands were shaking even b4 i met him, so my 1st reaction was to take off my piercing, went out and only answered the question he asked...more or less...i felt guilty about wut he scolded baby, i guess i was the root of the problem, if only we wake up early, then this wouldn't happen....but i guess tat incident makes a bad impression on the father.....
i say its pretty much a hard climb oso...
we went out slightly after tat to Chamang waterfall, i always love water....especially in these hot days....din swim there but jus dip for a while..and snap a few pics....
^^
the mutated and beautiful weird kinda dragonfly....
Her face like saw fish liddat....
i wanted to swim so much, i thought of going to Batang Kali's Waterfall as well..so we went there and reach there around 3 pm smth, darling swam with me as well, and she loved the place like how i love the place.....i told her "lets make a deal, we shall go and search for all the waterfalls in msia"...she said "ok..." and i smiled......
on the way back to bentong, its pretty much jammed up going back to kl, so i decided to stayed there another nite...but i dun wan to stay at the father's there so i stayed at a hotel instead, i dunno wut happen when baby went back, but apparently, wut i feared happen is happening, and she felt how i feel about my physical looks....she got so pissed off why her dad and his family disagree and saying tat we won't last....she came by and i comforted her anyway i could cause its one thing she never experienced and she was crying & heartbroken hearing all the things they said about me, like how last time i took it from my own family and family members....it took me sometime to change their mind, and i'm hoping to do the same too, like i said i wanted to be accepted by her family as well....i jus hope baby strong enough to just bare with it like how i am....
baby...theres a lot of things we still need to go thru, be strong ok? i'm not going anywhere, i'm not like one of ur ex-es, i'm different...theres nth i cannot change, the only thing i cannot change ever is how i feel about u....ur never a burden to me and i'm really happy tat u are happy fact tat my mum sayang u.....
in a way...i'm jealous...HAHAHHAHAHA...she never peel me prawn and let me eat...NEVER!!!!
last but not least, some new pics of me b4 new year.....gah...nth change.....
i wanted to swim so much, i thought of going to Batang Kali's Waterfall as well..so we went there and reach there around 3 pm smth, darling swam with me as well, and she loved the place like how i love the place.....i told her "lets make a deal, we shall go and search for all the waterfalls in msia"...she said "ok..." and i smiled......
on the way back to bentong, its pretty much jammed up going back to kl, so i decided to stayed there another nite...but i dun wan to stay at the father's there so i stayed at a hotel instead, i dunno wut happen when baby went back, but apparently, wut i feared happen is happening, and she felt how i feel about my physical looks....she got so pissed off why her dad and his family disagree and saying tat we won't last....she came by and i comforted her anyway i could cause its one thing she never experienced and she was crying & heartbroken hearing all the things they said about me, like how last time i took it from my own family and family members....it took me sometime to change their mind, and i'm hoping to do the same too, like i said i wanted to be accepted by her family as well....i jus hope baby strong enough to just bare with it like how i am....
baby...theres a lot of things we still need to go thru, be strong ok? i'm not going anywhere, i'm not like one of ur ex-es, i'm different...theres nth i cannot change, the only thing i cannot change ever is how i feel about u....ur never a burden to me and i'm really happy tat u are happy fact tat my mum sayang u.....
in a way...i'm jealous...HAHAHHAHAHA...she never peel me prawn and let me eat...NEVER!!!!
last but not least, some new pics of me b4 new year.....gah...nth change.....
i'm still as HOT I AM rite now...OH YEA!!!!&
going out for a movie with baby later......
"for as how much i dreamt about it, this is how it should be and i'm loving every seconds of it being close to u...."
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